Secret Candy

A little more than three years ago when I was still young and, relatively, innocent I started to explore the wondrous world of blowjobs. I still remember how nervous I was before my first time. I wanted to surprise J when we showered so I hadn't talked to him beforehand. I kept telling myself to just do it but I was very nervous. What if I did it wrong? How was I supposed to know how to do it? Eventually I mustered enough courage to get down on my knees and rock his world. Then I swallowed. Quite ambitious for a first timer maybe but I just assumed that's how it's done.

I let him come in my mouth a few more times before calling it off. I didn't much like the feel or taste of semen. I figured it was a small loss, I could still give great blowjobs without that part. That was a long time ago now and my tastes have grown and changed a lot in this time, yet I never questioned this particular decision. Not even as I found myself enjoying the occasional bukkake or other semen related porn videos, I'd simply made up my mind, it wasn't my thing.

Luckily I decided to re-evaluate my position on this recently. I'm still not sure how I feel about performing the act itself but the thought of it is enough to make me tingly. I love blowjobs and I'd love not having to break off towards the end. It also strikes me as a very submissive act and that just makes me all the more eager to do it. The thought of J forcing me to do it, after prior consent of course, is even more tantalizing.

J was his usual cooperative self when I brought this to his attention. We've tried it a few times and I think it's something I'll have to work on. It doesn't actually taste bad or good, it's a strangely neutral taste that still manages to taste of something. I know several things can influence the taste and I've been buying J a lot of juice lately, so there's another experiment I'll have to keep track of. I think it's mostly a question of just getting used to the texture and taste though.

On a more humorous note. We made a deal that every time I let him come in my mouth I get a special kind of candy. It's called Kick and it's a kind of delicious liquorice toffee. I got one yesterday and I've been feeling adventurous lately so we'd better stock up on them.